Well I suppose for my first post, I should tell you a little bit about myself. I choose my friends wisely, I have found a new somewhat obsession with techo music it makes me feel very European, and I tend to get really excited about things that would excite a nine year old. I got in a new pair of shoes today that I had ordered off the Internet and when I pulled into my driveway after a long day of nannying (in other words- tending to satans spon's every need and filling sippie-cups up with watered down orange juice) the sight of the UPS box sitting at the front door was like coming upon a tall glass of water after being stranded in the desert for weeks. Needless to say, this will probably be the only pair of shoes I ever spend this much money on because my impulse shopping has let to a huge dent in my bank account when I should have saved at least a majority of that money for my boyfriends birthday present which I have yet to purchase. I always get high off of spending money I dont care if its on a box of tampons or on a pair of jeans long enough to fit me; if Im swiping that card its like snorting a line off of a glass table top. In the past couple days since I have ordered those shoes, Ive done pretty well as far as money spending goes and I am proud of myself because there are still those moments when I have the urge to just hop in the car and run to target and by myself a new sports bra. That being said, I have found myself in quite a pickle because I am getting paid tomorrow and my first obligation is to get my boyfriend of almost six months a 20th birthday present and I have no idea what to get him. My ex was always easy to shop for because his closet resembled that of a homeless person so it was always easy to go pick up a polo and some sox and he was all set- but this one- he has such nice taste and loves all the expensive brands that I know Im gonna have to find him something pretty decent that he doesnt already have. Thats why Im bringing along my best friend to help me out because with her taste and intuituon, I have a feeling it will be a good decision whatever I end up getting him, and if he doesnt like it then i will just beat him with it does, but all it should take is for me to tell him to like it. Only time will tell though but I will keep you up to date. I am leaving later tomorrow night to go to pickwick with my father and his wife for the 4th, my feelings towards these weekend plans are bittersweet because on one hand I enjoy the lake and getting a nice tan but on the other hand, I havent seen the Boyfriend in over a week and this is just prolonging the chances of me seeing him and i do miss him dearly, but i guess i can just suck it up and deal with it- at least hes not a soldier over in Iraq. Well, hopefully i will get a chance to post again before my weekend voyage but if not, wish me luck that i dont get my face burnt off by a Roman Candle or a Black Cat at the firecracker shows- Until next time- hold it down- 1 & Only